30 Days of Gratitude: A Full Fridge
First of all a confession: All day I have had opportunity to take pictures of people and experiences I am thankful for, but I’ve been too embarrassed to pull out my camera and ask if I could take their picture. I’ve been carrying my camera bag with me since 6 am this morning and I just never had the courage. (I kept telling myself the light wasn’t right. A+ in missing the point, here.)
But during lunch with one of my friends, who I was too embarrassed to ask if I could take her picture, we were talking about what I call my Cheez-it problem.
Since Barry is a teacher, we’re not exactly rolling in the dough and some months the budget is tight. I mean tight Like those pants you keep telling yourself you’re going to fit into, but they’ve been sitting in your closet since freshman year of college. This is one of those months. When we sat down to do our budget on Tuesday night, I actually cried afterwards.
But, here’s the thing, we have all the money we need to buy groceries, to pay our mortgage, work painfully slowly towards paying off our credit card debt, pay our electricity bill, support our church family and our missionary friends in Brazil. We should be set, but this where the Cheez-it problem comes in. We don’t have enough money for me to randomly buy Cheez-its when I feel like it. (Or pumpkin spice lattes. Or that cute penguin sweater that Sam will grow out of in a blink of an eye.) And sometimes this makes me crazy. Growing up with probably too much food in my pantry at anytime, it feels like a great and terrible sacrifice that I can’t buy Cheez-its whenever I want. But it’s not.
“Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” – Matthew 6:26
God has taken care of my needs. And my needs are not Cheez-its. My needs aren’t even the full fridge. My need is to trust that the God of the universe gave me all I ever needed in the death and resurrection of his son. So, tonight I will choose to be thankful for the full fridge. I will choose to see it as an extravagance, one that I don’t deserve and I am blessed to have.